Seesaw

I
Doubt myself
Wonder if the vision of me
That dwelled in your mind
Was shattered by who I am

You
Don’t push me away
And yet don’t beckon me forward
Love is no longer blind
It would rather look at you

He
Says wait
As he himself waits
And the silence of compromise
Turns to the sound of not helping

She
Smiles for the future
Hoping for her friend
Speaking from experience
And possibly overestimating

They
Think they know best
Think that it’s easy
Think that there is hope
Think the future is now

I
Embrace hope
Despite my reservations
And pray you will take it away
Unless hope is real

You
Prove that my heart is beating
Only very confused
Love screams to know
Are you lying to yourself too?

He
Knows much
And says little
And thus drives insanity
Into the room

She
Assumes the best
For a friend who wonders
If she is being too optimistic
But is anyways hopeful

They
Are where they want to be
And think there is room for more
But they shift from the spotlight
And are gone

I
Find a corner to crawl to
The better to defend myself
From a heart that needs
Her smile

You
Are point A
And now is point B
And the shortest path
May not be a straight line

I
Hate the silence
For it holds naught but faint hope
That someday silence will be shattered
By your laughter

You
Are the subject
Of prayers and poetry
And like me or not
A blessing