Fate and Its Cruelty

Kick me out
I’ll go to sleep
My soul to keep
I pray it
Evade it
Why don’t I simply close my eyes?
Kick me out the door
And I will bother you no more
False sympathy
Stoking false confidence
And I sit on the fence
Undecided
Knowing there is no real choice
But to fall
Where I land doesn’t really matter
You don’t want me
I’ll try to fall somewhere else
But if I land too close
I will gladly provide you
With the tools to destroy me
Or at the very least
My heart
There’s a start
And in a way
The last part
Of what is keeping me
Sane/human/alive
You decide
It’s what you are taking away.

Is there any hope
That love is what I will see
If the only thing I can do
Is try my best to be me?