Twinsanity

I am what I know not
Laughter and suffering
Are my drug
Tie this knot
And slip through my head
You jumble of thoughts
All for naught
Slowly killing
My sanity
As I fall
Laughing
Deeper into madness
Crying till I laugh
Laughing at the tears
That insanity sheds
Like blood
Of an enemy
Or perhaps my Caesar
Bidding me this
Commanding me that
And now with his death
Nobody left to rule
But King Anarchy
And his laughing
And his weeping
Masks
Like those in a drama
That play throughout the final act
As I steal the show
In my last dying scene
Turning into rebirth
Laughter and suffering
The twins of insanity
Dance hand and hand
Through the cars
Of my derailed train of thought
I need laughter to survive
I cry because it leads to laughter
For does not man
Laugh at that which is crying?